Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Alone
The man in the house has been gone for about 2 months. In the beginning I was working. I was so busy it was a breath of fresh air to come to the surface and have a little solace. I love, love the summer, but this summer is stretched out before me. L left today and is staying 3 nights with her dad. They took the dog, because it makes L feel better. It is the first holiday in 8 years I will be without her. I didn't buy a cute fourth of July outfit and make plans to take pictures and hug her through the big booms. I immediately texted every person I know and tried to fill the space where she usually is. I filled each day with something, but tonight I am alone. I filled my home with music and am eating Brussels sprouts. Something in my home that is largely frowned upon. I'll watch a movie without interruption. I'll read my book. Perhaps I'll fix the half ass painting job that was done so many months ago. I will be fine and tomorrow I will not be alone. For today though sharing my girl sucks.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
1 comment:
The whole thing sucks and I am so sorry. YOu should have the family that your wanted and Lilly should have the family as well. We got to a breaking point in our marriage right after I finally got home with Maya, luckily it has worked out. The thought of having to share my child and not have control is very very scary, I know most families out there do it somehow. Take care.
Post a Comment