Adoption Bug

I carry a burden that I don't speak about
I have the adoption bug
I have it BAD
No one in my family knows
My husband is completely satisfied with our family
My daughter has no need for a sibling
During the school year I repeatedly tell myself I could not handle more than one
We do not have the funds to complete another adoption
But my heart desires to have another child
I am just getting the burden off my chest
Nothing will come of my feelings
I sit and watch others videos
and I DESIRE
Anyone else out there feel me.......