Therapy

So I went to therapy in search of answers.


Is this really something I can handle?


Did Peter want a baby?


If I miscarried again in the 2nd trimester how long would my emotional recovery be?


Could I parent two children?


Could I afford two children?


Would Lily still feel loved?


Would Peter still feel loved?


Is it selfish to take someone up on their offer when their only motivation is your happiness?


Diapers are stinky!


Babies after a bath smell delightful.


My body would sag in spots it hasn't yet.


I just started excersizing again!


Is it really fair to have an infant and then stick them in day care?


Infant care is super super expensive?


Lily doesn't ask for a sibling ever would she bond with the baby?


We are looking at a 7-8 year age difference.


Blah blah blah blah blah!!!!!!





I was searching for someone to say go for this. You should totally do this. It is in the best interest of everyone including you.





My conclusion is that if this was a path I really wanted to walk again.


All the above mentioned worries and doubts would seem surmountable.


I never once cared about these things when adopting Lily I knew what I wanted.


I was focused.


I was determined no one would tell me no.


I didn't care what anyone had to say.








What I found is I'm not any of those things right now.


So we've decided not to take any drastic measures.


And to continue on just as we have before.


I think if Peter had said let's adopt again I would be filling out paperwork like a mad woman


but, lets try again is not so much my cup of tea.