Doing okay

the start of this blog I let myself become a bit consumed by the unfairness of my own tragedy but I am doing better. I am feeling better. While I was pregnant two of my friends were also pregnant. The births of their children have been tests for my own healing. My second friend just had a son and it was okay news to hear. The bottom didn't drop out I didn't feel terrible or sorry for myself or particularly numb. So I am doing okay. I haven't seen my friends new little package yet nor have I heard details of her labor and delivery. I can say this conversation may make me slip a bit but I will be okay. The world is full of reasons to live and enjoy. I will be a part of the living and enjoying.