So I bought myself a Christmas present! Well I actually bought myself several :0). But this particular present means a lot to me. I got rid of my bed. This is the first thing he and I bought together as a married couple. I survived 12 years of marriage and 6 miscarriages in this bed. I spent many a sleepless night in this bed wondering how I was going to survive my marriage. Wondering how I was going to keep my daughter safe. Wondering just how my life got so off track. I grieved Luciana in this bed.
I can not tell you the thrill of watching the men carry it out of my home. The relief of seeing this gone gone gone! It is a truly Merry Christmas to me! Proof that I am starting over and making my life exactly what I want it to be!
Next week L is going with her Dad to Oregon. She is going to have a wonderful time. Send some positive thoughts my way, it will be the longest I've ever been without her.
Have a truly Merry Christmas my friends.
1 comment:
What a wonderful thing to buy yourself. Start over and at least not think of what all went on in that bed. I"m so sorry you won't have your daughter this week, that is truely awful. I will be thinking of you. Please take care and do something fun!
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