Ahhhh!!!!

And the good thing these days is that the anger leaves as quickly as it comes.  The other morning at 3AM it felt so real all encompassing and like a vice wrapped around my chest.  A few hours (ok I'll be real it took a day) later poof it was gone and I was back to regular scheduled programming.  I'm not even really sure what brought it on the other day.  I guess a sense of loneliness that has been creeping up on me. I just have to remind myself that I felt like a hostage in my marriage.  I was very, very lonely.  I'm no longer a hostage.  I am the captain of my ship and I get to steer this vessel where ever I want.  That is a beautiful thing. I also want to clarify that in my last post I said I was combative and uncooperative and although the ex sees it that way, for me I am setting boundaries.  Something I never did in my marriage or my life in general.  Sometimes setting these boundaries is messy because no one including me is used to it.  I'm practicing this boundary setting on him: A) because they absolutely have to be set.  He will take until there is nothing left and then ask for more. B) because I don't care what he thinks so boundary setting is easy and good practice.   So once again....... here we go positive attitude in tact!